Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Life 2.0: A Web Developer's View

Life is actually a very big computer.

It works in a coordinated way and it has clear algorithms for every process.

Every day is a new program. You start in the morning by planning your day and create a flowchart. Sometimes your planning is kept in a stored procedure, just so it will repeat itself. Then you develop your day with your codes.

Life will react to your codes. Your codes are your interactions with people and how you control yourself in doing things. If you use the right codes, things will go smoothly as planned.

Sometimes you'll get warnings and sometimes you'll get error messages. When that happens, it's time for you to look back at your codes and debug. This is necessary to ensure smoothness in life processes.

People tend to think that we, computer nerds, only see things from a strange point of view. But, when you view it this way, our view is very much human.

So living life is actually like a system development life cycle. You plan, design, write code, and debug. When you're fed up with things, try restarting the program and you'll be refreshed.

Putting it into non-geeky terms, you set goals in live, control yourself and your interactions with other people, and evaluate yourself based on feedbacks. When you're fed up with life, stop and refresh yourself with things you love.

So, indeed, my life is a very big computer program and I enjoy developing it every single day.


a proud computer nerd

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Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Hitting the Refresh Button

Creativity is what drives my life. It is the reason why I took computer science as my major. IT is the reason why I can spend sleepless nights doing my codes and also the reason why I haven't blogged in a long while. I like creating things and IT developers are artists and creators in their own ways.

About 2 months ago I met with several people offering investments. They want to establish an IT business venture. I was excited, but then somehow, in the middle of the road, things get bumpy and we cancelled the cooperations. I was disappointed because I knew the ideas we were about to build would require massive capitals in order for it to succeed. Then I spent nights after nights thinking on what to do next.

I entered the period I call frozen mind. A state of mind where you feel that you're no longer creative. A state of mind that causes someone like me feeling powerless. I feel that I cannot develop anymore when actually I could. In the middle of it all, I tried to warm things up. I browsed through all my previous coding work, seeing old system designs, trying to play around with it, basically trying to get something out of it.

Then in the process I found my bachelor and master degree thesis. Having not read it for a long long time, I tried reading it all over again. And then, it hits me. I got this product idea which is a combination of three things:

  • a traditional approach to the e-commerce business model
  • something with good customer relationship management capability, and finally
  • a social touch to make it more human

All three combined, I got the idea of what I'm currently developing. It will be a new product for the web community. Something I'll start in Indonesia first for a couple of months before going globally. Stay tuned for release dates. This is something I'll call ProjectZero.

As IT developers, we all face our frozen mind phase. When you're at it, don't force yourselves. Go back to your basic, start over and retry things up.

A good quote might come from the late Steve Jobs on the Stanford Graduation

I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.   - Steve Jobs 

The same thing happened in my case. I have to start over and things are clearer because you're freed from the you-must-do thingy.

So next time you face your frozen mind. Hit the refresh button.


- E -

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Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Take A Break From Your Digital Life

For the past 9 years I've been really tied to technology. Not a day goes by without excessive use of it. Ever since university I'm used to using computers for more than 8 hours daily, mostly coding with about an hour or two of movies, games, etc. On one side, it's good cuz during my university years I need to really develop my skills. But then as time goes by I get too attached to it. This is not good.

Back then I used a desktop so the only thing I'm really attached to is my cellphone, still am now. Since 2003, my phone has internet connection and I can get connected anywhere. Thus, my life circles around the net. Then starting 2008 I got my first laptop. This thing really went to places with me, even on my vacation. Sad, I know, but there's nothing I can do about it. I'm simply too attached to digital stuffs.

Last weekend, for the first time in my life I had a digital break. I was inspired by a blog post by Leo Babauta, a minimalist. It was nice and I enjoyed it a lot.

So what's my digital break?
  • I didn't check my emails, I simply let the email headers slide into my mobile phone and not checking what's in it.
  • I only update my facebook status once a day. Well, plus that restaurant link I shared cuz it was nice.
  • I left my mobile phone in the vouch most of the time since I didn't get a lot of phone and I put the vouch in my wife's purse.
  • I didn't code, nor use my MacBook for working purposes. The only thing I did with it was play videos my daughter requested.
  • I only made 3 posts to my online forum.
What did I do during my digital break?
  • I took my children to get their vaccination.
  • I finally found a new house to rent.
  • I visited some relatives and had a long talk.
  • I had a long herat-to-heart conversation with my wife.
  • I slept more than 10 hours (something I can rarely do).
  • I went to a colonial styled steak restaurant with my family.
  • I took my wife to the beauty parlor for a haircut.
  • I finished reading the "Padang Bulan" book I bought the day before.
  • I enjoy life :)
Judging from the usual situation, the digital break was successful and also cleared my mind out of junk thoughts that's been clogging my mind for a long time. I can focus  more after my mind-cache was cleared and it gave me a better view of things.

Technologies are there to help our lives. In my case, that's how I make a living. This also creates the condition where I can't get away from it. Technology was created with a noble purpose but then somehow it occupied most of our lives and we became attached to it.

Then again, we are still humans. We need to socialize on the real context, not just on social media, and really enjoy our surroundings. I know that maybe you're that much attached to technology and it's good. But it's also good for you to take a break from it and enjoy reality, enjoy your surroundings. Or at least enjoy a cup of coffee to the fullest, just like the picture above.

From now on, every weekend will be my digital break and I want to enjoy it to the fullest.

How about you?



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Monday, May 9, 2011

Giving Up On Your Marriage?

All my life, I've seen people giving up on their marriage. Each came with different reasoning behind the decision.

Some gave up because they experience domestic violence within their marriage. This, for me is still an acceptable reasoning, simply because it is dangerous for the people involved within the marriage circle.

Others gave up because they think there are violations in marriage commitment. Economic conditions seems to be the dominant factor here. Personally, I think it sucks when a marriage ends due to economic reasons, simply because economic conditions go up and down in family life. You need to adjust to those conditions and support each other.

Now the biggest marriage breaker is actually a simple word with a powerful effect, COMPARE. People tend to compare their couple to other people outside of their marriage, an ex-lover for instance. This creates an imbalance situation and it will not be healthy for the marriage itself simply because your spouse will feel hurt. In some cases the hurt develops into hatred and in the long run there will be no more love and respect within your marriage.

It's fine if you want to compare your spouse. BUT, do it BEFORE you get married. When you're married DON'T EVER COMPARE your spouse. Why? Simple. Marriage is about making a lifelong commitment. It's about making a choice and accepting whatever consequences resulting out of it. Including whatever behavior your spouse might show after a certain period of time.

Sure there will be times when your spouse is the biggest pain in the ass. But then again, remember that you choose your own spouse, set aside arrange marriage cases. When you choose, you're ready with whatever the consequences are. It should have nothing to do with your parents or your spouse's parents. You two are the ones inside your marriage.

You will have good sides and bad sides in your marriage life. It's not gonna be easy in shitty times. But, as I mentioned in my facebook status a while ago, remember your good times in your shitty times, that should keep your chin up.

So what should you do if you feel like your marriage is tearing apart?
The first thing would be to discuss it openly with your spouse and when I say discuss I mean that both of you must have a say and both have to really listen to it. This, hopefully will open communication barriers and if both of you can accept things well, it can lead to better things after self reflection based on the discussion.

If the first thing did not work out then I'd suggest getting someone neutral to mediate. Parents should be off limits in this case as they tend to protect their child, thus making them not neutral. Get a marriage counselor to help you two.

If you do both steps well, I'd say that things will be better for you two. 

Marriage is not just about the good parts. It's all about sad and happy times. It's about poor and rich times. It's about tears and laughter. And most of all it's about being together and caring each other till death do us part.

May you have a happy and lasting marriage.



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Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Letting Go & Moving Forward

People tend to get tied so much with their past so much that they can't let it go. Some because of good memories, some because they're afraid of moving on, and some because they feel so much pain in the past.

The past seems to haunt us in our daily lives simply because we cant let it go. 

Once I was in such situation where as a brokenhearted guy I seemed to have lost everything and lived in my past. My surroundings are all greyed out and all I can see was who I was in the past. This goes on for months and it slowly deteriorates myself.

But then, I get to a point where I finally put my mind on facing myself and all the realities faced. I took a risk. A risk that almost killed me in places I don't even know, I mean literally nearly killed me in an accident. 

That risk I took paid off. 

I rediscovered myself simply because I can let go of the past and getting prepared for a fresh start. I then live a new life, free of regrets and things that are holding me back. Then I met my wife, got a new job as a master degree graduate, had a daughter and a lot of other things. 

But then the cycle didn't stop there. As family need develops, I was forced to leave my dream job, a job at a big 4 firm at a group that's number one in the world, to pursue a job at the industry simply because it was better on remuneration packages. I wandered in the past again, thinking that my previous job was way better and how it challenged me to the max. I grew hopeless.

Then one day, a thought struck my mind. I realized I'm back to unable letting go of my past. Thus, it burdens me and I can't be reaching my full potential. I maybe am working at an established company before. But, now I have the chance to really develop myself based on my own potential, not on some system developed by others. So I let go of my past job and focus on the new one. Having done this, I got more spirits in doing my job. What's more? I get to focus on Emfeld Web Technology. And so it grew and became my pride now. And I'd give up my past for it to grow to the max.

In the past, I got stucked and unable to move on simply because I can't let go of my past. It was my hell and I'm thankful to learn from it. Now, I always try to put my past behind me.

I'm not saying that you should hate your past. I never hate mine. All I'm saying is let your past stay in the past. Learn from it. You live now and you should look to the future.

Don't be stuck in your past. Learn to let go. Learn to live and let live. You'll get better things ahead

Warm Regards


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Friday, April 29, 2011

Real Love Stories Never Have Happy Endings

I was searching for Usher's You'll Be In My Heart video on youtube to share with my friends at an internet forum when I saw a part of the video with this sentence:
"Real love stories never have happy endings because real love stories never end..."
I stopped the video and spend some time looking at the sentence. All my life, I've been filled with people's words that love would end in a happy ending. Movies, ever since our childhood, taught us this as well. At the end they live happily ever efter. That's a happy ending.

So what defines a real love story anyway? Is it a story of a married couple living together for more than fifty years and passed away in peace together? Will it be a Cinderella-like story? Or could it be the story of Romeo and Juliet? I beg to differ in this case.

I define a real love story as two people, loving each other with all their hearts no matter what happens and accepting each other the way they are. They can be together or not, married or not, and even never see each other. But, they keep their love at the purest form for each other.

That is true love.
And true love lasts forever, in both life and death.
This is what I believe in and this is the kind of love I want to share with my soulmate.
I want to keep my love at the purest form only for my soulmate and keep it till the end of time

Only for my soulmate...

Warm Regards


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Sunday, April 24, 2011


Sometimes I see life as an interstate highway. It's full of people heading to various destinations. Some headed for the same exit, some others just follow in the way, and even a lot are heading against your way. 

Just like a highway, interstates have entry points and exits. The one thing that didn't really happen a lot are big intersections like you see in the picture above. Both have promising destinations but you can only choose one. In some cases, you'll never see the intersection again after you make your choice. 

This, in real life, causes dilemma. Some people stopped for along time at the intersection to weigh their chances on picking each direction. Some got stuck for a very long time, some even decided not to continue the travel. Some others wished they can choose both.

I'm currently in an intersection where I have to choose. Now, I choose to stop and weigh. Both directions will come with great consequences. Some might see me as an opportunist. The truth is, I'm trying hard not to let those directions turn into a purgatory. I want the directions I choose to be paradise, a peaceful place to go to. 

This one is a tough choice for me. Each has ups and downs at almost equal level, but I cant choose both. I'm only wishing that if I can someday make that choice of direction, I can somehow find another path to return to the other direction. 

That is IF I CAN. 

For now I'll be staying in the intersection for quite some time. Long enough to know and decide. How bout you? what would you do in life's intersection?

Warm Regards


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Friday, April 1, 2011

Looking Back Into The Days

Just now...

I looked back to the past....

To the times when I struggle hard, cuz life brought me down hard.
To the times I fell down on my knees and prayers are all I have
To the times when I have no one else but myself
To the times when I think life is really mean on me

But then...

I realized that during those times...

Life taught me to always struggle for my existence
Life taught me that you can always hang into your faith when everything else falls apart
Life taught me to really take care of your loved ones who'll be there for you
Life taught me to always be thankful in whatever situations

so those four lessons will always stay in my mind,

struggle, have faith, take care of your loved ones, be thankful

live your life that way

and may you have a better and more meaningful life

Warm Regards


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Wednesday, February 16, 2011

27 years

My 27 years in numbers:

2 years of pre-education

6 years of primary school

3 years of junior high

3 years of senior high

6 debating titles

3 Chief Adjudicator experiences

2 world debating championships

1 bachelor degree

1 master degree

4 jobs at 5 companies

1 company established and owned

A happy marriage

2 little angels

And many other things to come

When I put it that way, it shows that I've had so many things in life and I'm thankful for that.

It's all in your mindset

Warm Regards

Fauzan Erich Emmerling
The birthday boy

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Saturday, January 29, 2011

I Write!

Why do you write?

Some people might be asking why they would have blogs, why they would write a book or other forms of publications. They would end up with various reasons.

Some would say they write to make a living. Some might say they write to fulfill their passion. Some others might even write because of peer preassure or because they want to be popular. Even Barney writes his blog to be legen... wait for it ...dary! Legendary!

I write simply because I want to. Not because I want people to read it and change their lives. Not to be legendary like Barney. Not because I want to make a living out of it. Not because I want to be famous. Not even to fulfill my passion. Just because I want to, as simple as that.

I write whenever I feel like writing, wherever I can (laptop, paper, smartphone), and I write whatever comes through my head. Not some pre-researched topics I think people would love to read.

Take this post as an example. I wrote this in a motor garage while getting my motorcycle has its monthly maintenace and I simply use my ever-reliable smartphone. This post came through my mind and I wrote it down. Just like that. No purpose, no agenda.

So, why do I wrote this post?

Simply because I want to.

Warm Regards


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Wednesday, January 12, 2011

2011, A New Year Resolution?

It's January 12, 2010 and I haven't made something I used to make from year to year, my new year resolution. I openned this year with a very happy gift. My son was born at the beginning of the year. Once more, our little family is very happy and all my focus are directed towards my children.

Looking back in time, when I was in senior high, about 10 years ago, I set these long-term goals I wish to achieve in life. Some of which are:
  • Get my master degree before 25. I managed to finish my master degree on July 2008, the graduation was in November 2008, so basically I'm on the right track, going a few months faster. Target met.
  • Get married at no more than 25. I managed to get married on December 2008, or approximately 2 months before I'm 25. So this one is also met nicely.
  • Work for a company that is number 1 in the world in its field. Back in 2008, I worked for Deloitte's Enterprise Risk Services Group. The ERS is the world leader in security and privacy. So, there you go. Another target met.
  • Have my own (running) company before 30. I started Emfeld Web Technology in 2005, when I was still in university. At that time I have no idea that the company would grow and have a lot of clients. Almost 6 years since I found the company, we're going with our flagship product, intanware, the web management software. Simply saying, target met.
  • Have 3 children. This one is still in pursuit because financial calculations would definitely be in a major factor. Currently I have two little angels, Faeyza and Özil. Who knows maybe in the next five years we'll have another addition to the family.
  • Work for at least 1 european company. In late 2010, I started a cooperation with Yackety Yak, an Austrian Social Media Firm and we're starting the projects this January 2011. Now, I dont know yet whether this will turn out to be long term or not, but I'll make sure to put my best efforts into it.
So, After judging the previous long term targets, I'll set my targets for this year, which are:
  1. Buy a car. This is seriously needed this year to make sure that my family can travel to places with comfort.
  2. Ensure cooperations with Yackety Yak. Right now we're starting our first project and I want to make sure that we'll be doing more than just one projects. This whole new python development thingy is so interesting that I've had so many sleepless nights experimenting. If it runs at least until December with talks of extending the deal untill 2012 then I'll be a happy man. That is how it will be measured at the end of the year.
  3. Be more discipline at 5-time-compulsory prayer. This one goes for my resolution with God. I haven't been discipline for this during 2010 and I am looking forward to discipline myself. This one, only God can measure.
  4. Finish intanware2.0. This is the 2nd generation of the intanware software family. This time it runs under the python platform. Target completion date, end of April 2011.
  5. Be a better husband and father. I dont think I'm that good yet to be a husband or father. Nonetheless, I still need to improve a lot. My family will measure this.
I've had enough resolution for a year, I guess. 5 is a big number and it's quite hard to achieve. I'll have to make sure that I put my 110% effort to achieve all.

Until then...

Warm Regards

Fauzan Erich Emmerling

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Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Linux on Acer Aspire 4520 Install Guide

On The Transition To Linux
I used to be a Windows user for as long as I can remember.
But for the past 6 months I tried using linux, thx to my friend Gesang and his provocative act influencing me to switch to linux. 

Now I am using Backtrack 4 R1 (Ubuntu 8.10), a penetration testing distribution. I use the distro because I need the pentest capability to test the applications I created. So after about 6 months on Linux, I decided on switching my main O/S to Linux and leaving my Windows XP SP2 as an alernative. I don't know. Give me a couple of months and perhaps I'll run Windows on a VM.

Now let,s get to the real point why I wrote this post in the first place.
When I switched, the main problem was that most of the stuffs in my laptop is not all directly included in the distribution. Thus, I have to search all over the web for the required resources.
This post will sum up where you'll have to download all the stuffs.

Graphic Driver
No, the graphic driver is not included in the box.
All you need to do is go to the driver download page to download the graphic driver for GeForce 700M. From console simple run the script and restart the x-server. The XORG configuration will be configured by the script.

Sound Driver
Just like the graphic driver, you'll also need to install the sound driver. All you need to do is download the latest ALSA driver here. After instalation, do not forget to change the modprobe for ALSA. 

Open /etc/modprobe.d/alsa-base.

In the last line add:

options snd-hda-intel model=acer

after that, save and restart x. Enjoy the sound.

Webcam doesn't come out of the box. You can download the webcam driver here. After instalation, try using cheese or skype to test. It should be working fine.

It works fine out of the box.

Wireless card (Atheros) works fine out of the box.

Those are the common problems.
Hope it helps.

If you have other question, email me or follow my twitter.

Oh, and by the way, Happy New Year 2011. Hope this year becomes a successful year for all of us.
Thanks for visiting.

Warm Regards

Fauzan Emmerling

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